Happy moo-moo New Year!Just incase, the post ahead may or may not dampen ur CNY mood, so read only if you are not feeling emo..
Occasions like this make me really miss my cousins extra alot..
CNY used to be so fun back when all of them were around,
now that most of them are all over the world....its so quiet,
plus this year i'm not even going back to Pahang to visit my popo,
so...with hardly any festive spirit left in me,
i think i'm becoming the scrooge of CNY.
no........
fine,
let me just try to see the glass as half full,
atleast I still have some family left here in Malaysia,my beloved mama,my parents and brother to celebrate with..and not forgetting Ivan and his family too..=)
and..ang pao's!haha...
must remain positive and everything will fall in place..
and who knows, this may suddenly be my best CNY ever..hah
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!
sayhavent had the mood to write about anything lately
..but will probably blog soon once i get some new pictures.
right now, I'm feeling kinda blue or maybe I'm just really tired.
don't want to think about it..
but don't want to sleep it off either.
I should probably go gulp down a huge glass of cold ribena now.
the combination of the sugar and ice makes it all better..
sugar to raise the level of my happiness and ice to decrease my level of pei-ness.
over and out
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MERCY CAME RUNNING
Standing there, I felt guilt and shame. I couldn't get myself to sing.It just didn't feel right.
I felt so far away and cold to the extent that I did not even want to lift up my hands to tell Him i love Him. I wish i could because I do, but after I disobeyed Him and hurt Him so many countless of times, I just couldn't. I would be a hypocrite If i did so.
I know he would forgive me if only I'd asked but I didn't think I was worthy enough for anymore of His forgiveness.I hoped that he would whisper to me to tell me that its ok and to tell me personally that He still loved me but it didn't seem like I could hear Him. He's gone, I thought.
The worship ended and it was time for the preaching.
I haven't been going to church for some time now and wasn't expecting anything extraordinary that day.
As the pastor explained how this week was suppose to be a cell group discussion thing but somehow felt led to stray from the actual schedule and go on with what God has put in his heart to preach that day, a tingling sensation suddenly rushed down my spine,literally...
the first thing the pastor did was play a song called Mercy came running.
As the music played and the lyrics were projected on the wall, I knew He was speaking to me and I immediately felt his presence again and felt him holding me in His arms and telling me that its ok and that He is always there for me.
Indeed, His mercy endures forever..
The pastor went on preaching to us about the parable of the prodigal son
( luke 15:11-32)
I may have heard this parable many many times but it never really did speak to me as much as it did that day.
He reminded me that He never left me and He is always just one breath away.
He was always waiting to embrace and welcome me home no matter how much I have made him sad.
Truly,there is no one else in this world who has such grace and mercy and love..No one.
The service ended with a replay of the song and another song called when God ran.
I rededicated my life to Him and I am so happy and thankful that He is my Lord and saviour.
always and forever...
when the sin i carried was all i could see
when i could not reach mercy,
mercy came running to me.
thank You for dying on the cross for me and loving me, I love You...
wow
gotta admit, i'm in shock
so it's just gonna be a straight forward malaysian styled post.
seriously i never liked the idea of having a chat box on my blog because of all the drama-rama i've experienced in the past...
but hey wanted to give it another shot just for the fun of it...
but really lar i'm amazed to find that there are still some people out there who still even bother to give their opinions in a non constructive way..sometimes really mean wheyy..haha..my goodness!!
so i decided that it should be deleted.
what if next time a whole clan of anonymous people spam my chat box with vulgar words or worst judge me!!??how!?honestly i'm quite scared...scary lar these people...i mean i holiday damn bored oso atleast i just stone in my room and look at the ceiling and count sheeps..why must they go around blog hopping and judging people?haha...pro pro...
but really i cannot tahan lar people contaminate this blog, got **** this kind of words somemore...aiyoh...such an eye sore...soooo ugly!!
and also i realized that this is getting abit old school...
and i am also getting too old for this..and lazy too...malas to layan..
i mean, so old d lar..still want chat box wars meh?hahahaha..
however, gotta admit that it was actually quite entertaining for awhile...
and right..i just started this blog like not too long ago whey..how they so fast come wan?
abit honoured lor..but its like they watch and wait daily for a new victim....maybe,maybe...
or maybe its a friend of mine??that would be interesting..so if you're my friend,own up ok?haha..
no but really i dont get it lar..why people want to make enemies wan leh?
is it very fun to hate/dislike someone and have someone hate/dislike in return?
hahaha...i think my next post is going to be a post about people and hatred,
i feel inspired...
xangafien,
ok maybe i dont know the reason or reasons behind ur spitefulness but if you are just getting back at me for something i ever did to you then i'm sorry and i'd like to end this feud between us .sorry if i ever did offend you in anyway!
but really if you're just a really random person who I've never met or seen or heard off before then what on earth did i do to make you feel so angry at my boringness and how in the world will you know if i am full of **** or not wor??..that isn't very fair isn't it?haiyoh....
but oklar tell you what,
whatever you call this, a war or a battle or a squabble or a throw down,
you win ok??
but hopefully you will grow out of this..its really tiresome. no meh?
i surrender....
my chat box is now buried 6 feet under..hahaha
and just a thought to random people who like to comment on peoples chat boxes...
if and only if you like commenting on other peoples blogs for whatever reason, try saying something nice or atleast give some constructive criticism which can be put to good use?
if you don't have anything good to say then why say anything at all???hmmmmmm...
ok so this is seriously just my opinion...so don't get all worked up again k?!haha
it certainly is a strange strange world out there...haha
PEACE!!!! PEACEEE!!! WhAT HAPpened TO the peace????????
compilation(its story telling time..........more so for myself because I think by putting them down here,I will never forget...but i'd love to share it with those of my friends who are interested.haha...if you're not then come back next time =) )
I think the digital camera only became popular back in the year 2004.
that explains why I didn't have many pictures of my time in school..
but better a few than none at all.
so first up,my cheer days.
I first joined Dynamitez in the middle of form 4.
went to Genting for my first cheer performance and later on had my first cheer competition in Sungei wang (cheer for Merdeka).
After that we were all focused on the Cheer 2004 competition.
practiced for about 7 months.
turned almost as black as charcoal due to our long hours of practice under the hot sun,and
as the day of the competition approached,we skipped most of our classes and practiced almost everyday from 8 am to 5 pm and sometimes even after dinner..i miss the torture...
However,one of our flyers badly injured her knee a day before the big day and we decided not to replace her but instead had her do the simpler stunts. (she had an operation after our competition and the doctors never allowed her to cheer anymore)
one of our stunts fell at the very end and we had to settle for 2nd place..
although we were sad and disappointed we knew we did the best we could.
oh..............
once while we were at practice at the park just outside our school,we got robbed by a guy with a huge parang..
he shouted profanities at us as though we were the ones robbing him..pfft
and my ex captain Yee Ming tried to fight him and he almost slashed her...it felt like we were watching matrix and we were all too shocked to do anything.we just kept screaming for help after he rode off on a motorbike with his accomplice.
yeap,we never practiced there again.lotsa things were lost and lots of tears where shed that day(most of them just got their new hp's u see),
i still remember one of my friends shouting at the guy to bring back her jeans and slippers..HAHA...it wasn't a laughing matter at that time though.
then I joined Charm after i was out from school.
stopped after a few months because I had some distractions and joined them back again about a year later.
Went with Charm to Singapore for the 2005 Chingay Parade.
my first competition with Charm - SCP 2006 at Sri Kembangan
then went down to Johor for cheer clinic (2006) and a few performances.
performed for cheer 2006..the most tiring routine ever..haha..
cheered till the end of 2006 and then i decided ok maybe i should take a break again.
then a year and a half later, I rejoined Charm once more...
only lasted a month though because as much as I love and miss cheerleading..
I think i'm not up for it anymore...
firstly,I do not like flying(really afraid of heights) and these days every girl has to fly..
and recently, i'm very prone to injuries...eg. i twisted my ankle while dismounting..wowwwww,amazing..dont even know till today how that is possible..
and after a few splits i think i tore my thigh muscles,ok maybe sprained them..whatever it may be,it hurts whenever i stretch..sigh..
so i guess i'm better off coaching now..haha..but I think my cert is expiring soon...gahhh..
and here are some random after form 5 pictures in no specific order
we were going for a movie at gsc 1u..
my Mufy mates...just recently graduated from Mufy (SUC)
Taman Negara
Lang Tegah
i think it was Ashley, Jun Chin and someone elses bday party at Eastin hotel(care to remind me Sal?,if you remember)
Faisal's 18th birthday at Hard Rock,KL...most of us were going through some horrible phase of life at that time..rite sal??hahahaha...will not elaborate
Fabians 21st bday at some restaurant
at Shereton,KL having our very expensive rip-off dinner... hahaha.we thought we could get a 40% discount off the bill but they said it was only for two people or something like that and the rest had to pay the original price..thank goodness Cheryl and i shared a bowl of pasta..
caused us rm 60 i think..and the portion, not even enough for one.
Having Yong tao foo at Segambut!
this i remember clearly..we were getting ready for a haloween party at Zouk(2005)
the countless times we had to say good bye to our beloved friends who go off to a foreign far away country to do what they need to do to become successful in life.
only get to see them 2 to 3 months a year...and they all come back at different times..when will we be one big happy friendly family again?sigh..miss everyone of you all!
Recent photo of a few of us at Swensens..
HaHAha..we were so young then! christmas,2004
while working at Camp 5, 1u(at the cafe) ...
there was once where we worked from 7 30 am till 3 am for some event..
no kidding...haha..
and finally,
the story of my school days...
can't get enough of it and will always be talking about it..
proud to be a Djian and miss being one.
but if you're not from Dj let me just tell you a little about the way we lived our lives in school..hahaha...
I guess we were very competitive people,
to do better in the things we did and also in the way we looked..it's not exactly a bad thing but it isn't exactly a good thing either..haha..
we were like a community of people living in our own world and trying our very best to keep up with each other..gotta admit,at times it gets really stressful
i don't know if its like this in other schools but in DJ,
the girls usually buy their uniforms from professor just because the colour looks better and some or most even bring it to the tailor to have it altered so that it has a better fit..haha
the paper bags that were use to put our PJK clothes in must be nice looking..eg. either you bring paper bags from Mng, Guess,Zara etc. or you just buy yourself one..(the pretty ones you can find at bookshops)..and after all that trouble, you don't change during PJK because most of them don't like to get dirty and sticky..hahaha..
your water bottle must either be the one with the brand Sigg( the metal one) or any other cute small and slim metal bottle..
well there are many more small and petty stuff which I can't really remember but the most prominent DJ trademark is the bags we carry, and how they are carried.
It must be worn high,the top part of the bag must be just below the neck...if only i could get a picture of it..but really everywhere u turn you see people carrying it that way.
the bags - either and eastpak or an outdoor but you do occasionally see some people with body pac's as well..
the mini eastpak
in all honesty, we shouldn't succumb ourselves to peer pressure and should just be comfortable with ourselves and just be who we really are.We were young and immature and thought that these were the things that determined where we belonged..i suppose you can say that we were innocently silly?haha..atleast we have something to talk and laugh about now that were all over with the drama of being a high school kid.
Form 5 Cengal
its what you have in your heart that matters.
blue-ish greenhad a bbq the other night.First time having it with just 4 girls and sing yee's mum..
haha..managed to avoid getting burnt
and I'm a recent seafood convert
the prawns were so fresh(alive and jumping before we cooked them)because Michelle insisted that it will taste much better,and she certainly was right.
smores! melted marshmellows and nutella sandwiched in between two crackers..addictive gila!
also had dinner with my family last week at my uncles restaurant at Sri Petaling because one of my cousins in England came back for a holiday.
introducing my nephews,Jonathan Elliot Akerman and Matthew Joshua Mak
this is Sheridan.Shes a 22 months old girl whom my cousin is taking care off
she laughs alot,very sweet girl
and go listen to Lenka - the show
Jumbo postwas at KL 4 days in a row..
went for foot,hands and shoulder massage at the Kenko fish spa at pavilion with my besties on the 7th..it was damn goood!
will post the pics up when i get them.
it cost us about rm 100 per person but we got them for free thanks to Lu xanne..she got vouchers from them from her recent Jasmine magazine modelling thing when she won.haha..
go check out the mag..its in mandarin though..
Lu xanne and Shermund
coincidentally,my friend Shermund from Charm won for the male part..lol..
Spent the next two days at the Swiss Garden hotel,KL with Ivan,Natalie and his mum.
at long last, I finally managed to watch bedtime stories..wasn't exactly what I hoped it would be though.
Natalie only joined us after dinner,
chatted with her till 3 in the morning and then woke up the next morning and headed down to pavilion again
this time for fish spa therapy..(used the vouchers as well)
tried it once before and out of 30 minutes I used 20 minutes to build up the courage to put my feet in,but hey i guess i have overcome that fear cause it only took me 5 minutes this time around to allow the fishes to gnaw at my feet..however,I am taking baby steps and decided not to put my feet into the water with the big fishes..
oh and we also had the yummy delicious oyster mee sua(you can never get sick of it) and the egg crepe from the Taiwan stall (shilin) and mm mmmm orh chien!haha..